Grr

How can someone be so stressed out?

There are some many things i need to do that i feel like there's huge weight over my sholders and i'm slowly crushing under it. I just want to lay down on my bed and stay there a week. Always when i have too much to do and think i just can't do anything. Today would have been very good day to do some school assignments or some to-dos i got from my on-the-job-learning-place.. But what have i done? I have slept all day! (Maybe because i slept only two hours last night cos' i could not get sleep.. But what ever.) And STILL i'm writing this and don't istead do anything sensible.

Why Why Why..

I really need to stop this whining and DO SOMETHING!

Now playing:
Faith Hill - Somewhere down the road

Something new!!

HAH

I just did something i'm very proud of!!!
I sent an application for rent-apartment! I'm going to move on my own!!

This is something i couldn't believe six months ago... I just said that i'm happy living with my dad and his wife but things are little different now. Nothing bad isn't happened but i just think i need to go my own way and learn to live on my own.


Just a moment ago i looked around in my room. It's furnished just the way i want and it's cosy with all old wood furniture, brown walls and red curtains. I have to admit that i brusted in tears and silently plaing Carry Underwood's "Don't forger to remember me" didn't really help my situation :D It's quite sad that all of us grow up..


This is a big step but i really think its worth it! It's time to turn page in my life! :)


"I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye."

Carry Underwood - Starts with Goodbye

Btw! On Sunday is my 19th birthday! Let see how i'm going to celebrate.. :)

In a picture is Me and my dog Ippu :)

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Sometimes i wish i could move to some little island somewhere and live there all by myself.

Sometimes people are so difficult..

Hello new year! :)

I spent my new years eve with my best friend Minttu and her little baby boy Leevi! :)

This was my first new year without my family but it wasn't so big thing after all. We just played with Leevi, watched a movie and i ate so much that i got stomach ache.. :P
And at midnight i phoned someone special :)

I made few new year promises:

-I don't smoke at all in january (except my b-day! if i like i to smoke i can smoke few cigarets) but i aim that i don't smoke at all.

-I start to jog or go to gym besides the horseback riding

-I stretch to a split

-I'm going to be more hardworking with my studies

-And i'm going to somewhere in foreign countries to on the job learning (Hopefully to England or Australia)

So there's little bit something to aim to! :)

Let see how i'm going to survive this year!

Oh and one thing!

My friend promised to buy me a TATTOO!! As a christmas and birthday gift! (about 80€) Wooow... I have about a week time to figure out where and what kind of tattoo i want.. Shit... :D