And here we go again

School began again yesterday and it waas fun to see classmates again! Though i liked the on-the-job-learning it was nice to start normal school again. In January i was stressed out all the time and now when I think about it - it was quite unnecessary.. But at least I got a good grade! (grading scale 1-3 and I got 3! )

Sunday i'm going to ship cruise (Only vocational school students). It's just one huge party, people in silly costumes, people wasted and lot's of fun! My only worry right now is MONEY.

Lets see how i'm going to survive rest of the mounth after the cruise....

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Minelle

Grr

How can someone be so stressed out?

There are some many things i need to do that i feel like there's huge weight over my sholders and i'm slowly crushing under it. I just want to lay down on my bed and stay there a week. Always when i have too much to do and think i just can't do anything. Today would have been very good day to do some school assignments or some to-dos i got from my on-the-job-learning-place.. But what have i done? I have slept all day! (Maybe because i slept only two hours last night cos' i could not get sleep.. But what ever.) And STILL i'm writing this and don't istead do anything sensible.

Why Why Why..

I really need to stop this whining and DO SOMETHING!

Now playing:
Faith Hill - Somewhere down the road

Something new!!

HAH

I just did something i'm very proud of!!!
I sent an application for rent-apartment! I'm going to move on my own!!

This is something i couldn't believe six months ago... I just said that i'm happy living with my dad and his wife but things are little different now. Nothing bad isn't happened but i just think i need to go my own way and learn to live on my own.


Just a moment ago i looked around in my room. It's furnished just the way i want and it's cosy with all old wood furniture, brown walls and red curtains. I have to admit that i brusted in tears and silently plaing Carry Underwood's "Don't forger to remember me" didn't really help my situation :D It's quite sad that all of us grow up..


This is a big step but i really think its worth it! It's time to turn page in my life! :)


"I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye."

Carry Underwood - Starts with Goodbye

Btw! On Sunday is my 19th birthday! Let see how i'm going to celebrate.. :)

In a picture is Me and my dog Ippu :)

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Sometimes i wish i could move to some little island somewhere and live there all by myself.

Sometimes people are so difficult..

Hello new year! :)

I spent my new years eve with my best friend Minttu and her little baby boy Leevi! :)

This was my first new year without my family but it wasn't so big thing after all. We just played with Leevi, watched a movie and i ate so much that i got stomach ache.. :P
And at midnight i phoned someone special :)

I made few new year promises:

-I don't smoke at all in january (except my b-day! if i like i to smoke i can smoke few cigarets) but i aim that i don't smoke at all.

-I start to jog or go to gym besides the horseback riding

-I stretch to a split

-I'm going to be more hardworking with my studies

-And i'm going to somewhere in foreign countries to on the job learning (Hopefully to England or Australia)

So there's little bit something to aim to! :)

Let see how i'm going to survive this year!

Oh and one thing!

My friend promised to buy me a TATTOO!! As a christmas and birthday gift! (about 80€) Wooow... I have about a week time to figure out where and what kind of tattoo i want.. Shit... :D